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October 7, 2010
4:00am. I’m lying awake on my twin size bed, consumed by an anxiety that seems to have found an unwelcome home in my mind. Several months ago I was sure that everything would be easier once college was over; and while I certainly don’t miss the homework, I do long for the endless hours of practice time and full social life that college provided. 4:15am. Fall has always reminded me of back to school season, but this year I am spending my fall days working at Caramoor and my fall nights trying to practice and focus on my music career. I’m exhausted. Music has always been my life, and the reality that everyone warns you about –it’s hard to make a career in music—is beginning to set it.
Don’t get me wrong, I love working at Caramoor. The summers are PACKED with action – summer staff running around, musicians performing, stage crew setting and striking stages, patrons enjoying the music. The quiet fall is a nice change at Caramoor, and finally I’ve had a chance to really appreciate the beauty of the grounds and the magnificence of the Rosen House. Still, part of me longs for the dirty sidewalks of Harlem and the cacophony of taxi horns that somehow was inspiring from a 2nd floor practice room.
As I prepare for the Indoors Season at Caramoor, I am forced to reflect somewhat painfully on my own career and how I wish I could be out there just playing all the time. It is extraordinarily fulfilling to lead two lives—a full time employee at a world renowned music festival and a young jazz musician on the rise— but, sometimes I wish it was a little easier. Hopefully, somewhere down the road I’ll look back and remember how hard I worked and I’ll be glad that it paid off. For now, I’ll continue to love the beautiful music of Caramoor and I’ll drive back into NY for a dose of cacophonous inspiration.
Alison Shearer, Caramoor Staff Leave the first comment
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